on a brighter note

Mr. F is comin to town within hours.

we are goin to party .. so i did stupid stuff this week.. i made two perchaises that cost the same
wulitzer omni 6500
and a guitar .. both 200 dollars each. maybe that will force me to learn how to play guitar and piano... ok. time to go work at Catty cart cornner for the saints game!
whodat

went to gretna fest tonight. it was ok. ten dollars.. i saw what i wanted to see of the two bands i wanted to see... accually i wanted to see more of allen tousaint then soul assgasum. today was the first time i saw my dad after the day i flipped out .. that wa weired. alot of things were weried today. i always used to think my sister was goin to have to deal with my dead body one day... maybe for the simple fact that she was born in 83 and i in 80.. but tonight . i think she is goin to kill herself before i do.. thats sad... makes me wnat to die 3 years ago..

i didn't go to work today

i have no reason.. i'm just fucking tired.. me bb and chuck have a radio show at 4.. then band practace. i think we are goin to play chicago for our first show. it should be a fun drive.
me and tommy and raha went to pho tau bay yesterday for dinner.. i went there this morning for breakfest too. anyway. tommy's cousin was there and came to the table.. met raha for the first time.. and then she was like . "i want you to meet my boyfriend... Carl get over here!" and it was Carl!!! wolverine .. mr pho tau bay! that was hillarious to me... Raha left this morning. tommy will soon follow. sadness .. ok. time to go take this depression to the windixie and get a six pack...

i got internets at the house

i had no clue this was at my finger tips.. i am never leaving the house again.
unless it's to go see a boodie dance contest.

Lee....?

i used to get drunk with this guy when i was 18

Joe Banks

nightmare central. i havent had a decent dream is so long. by decent .. i mean not waking up with panic attacts., my favorite is the teeth one. i get that 2 times a month at least. i wake up thinking i lost my teeth. .. i can't explane how convenceing and horifying it is every time my teeth are missing. . fuck. i ready for life number two.. playing/watching shows or being wtul is the only time i am every happy these days.. and latley.. that is not the case.. thats when i know that i am super fucked.. .. fuck fuck fuck.. i think i may move away sudenly .. .. here is a list of possible new homes:
Czech Republic
a closet in new york
joe shivers and riley's couch
casket
athens GA
Domino Records
redwood forest
san pedro CA
sandiago CA
bottom of a vulcano

so sleepy

i hate my house so much. i wish i never borrowed money from a bank in fucking louling. tonight i was so tense while recording that i accidentaly did something kind of bad. .. i ripped my pinky toe nail off .. i was just picking at it sort of. and then all of a sudden i relised i was holding my toe nail. it looks like a rat bit it off. it all bloody and shit. i left the nail on greg's wet dry vacume. i have to remember to get it next time i'm there. . ok. time to go home.